i have...

[ ] smoked.

[x] consumed alcohol. (jolly shandy and i shant say in case i'll be in court...)

[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.

[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.

[x ] kissed someone of the same sex.(flying kisses + cheek (besides mom 0.-) )

[ ]had sex.

[x] had someone in your room other than family. (maid and friends)

[ ]watched porn.

[ ] bought porn.

[ ] tried drugs.



MY TOTAL:4

[x] taken painkillers. (last time my grandma gave me-.-)

[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine.

[x] lied to your parents.

[x] lied to a friend.

[x] snuck out of the house.

[x] done something illegal.

[x] felt hurt.

[x] hurt someone.

[ ] wished someone to die. (dun remember paiseh) (i know hats evil)

[ ] seen someone die.

MY TOTAL: 11



[x] missed curfew.

[x] stayed out all night.

[ ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.

[ ] been to a therapist.

[x] received a ticket

[ ] been to rehab

[ ] dyed your hair. (natural dye hence not counted :D)

[ ] been in an accident.

[ ] been to a club.

[ ] been to a bar

MY TOTAL: 14



[ ] been to a wild party.

[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade.

[ ] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night. (SHALL TRY NEXT TIME!) (uh got 2 cups b4 when i was like 9?)

[ ] had a spring break in Florida.

[ x] sniffed anything(ammonia. wall paint, teh glue u use 2 stick paper, uhu glue etc :x)

[ ] wore black nail polish

[ ]wore arm bands.

[ ] wore t-shirts with band names.

[x] listened to rap. (unwillingly..)

[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD. (no 50c, but got free ones and 3 for 1buck one)

MY TOTAL: 16



[ ] dressed gothic

[x] dressed girly.

[ ] dressed punk.

[ ] dressed grunge

[x] stole something.

[] been too drunk to remember anything.

[ ] blacked out. (blank out YES!)

[] fainted.

[ ] had a crush on a neighbour.

MY TOTAL: 18



[x ] had a crush on a friend. (lalala)

[x] been to a concert.

[ ] dry-humped someone.

[ ] been called a slut. (ee i dun remember)

[x] called someone a slut. (playing only !)

[ ] installed speakers in your car.

[ ] broken a mirror.

[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house

[x] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. (for 5 sec-.-)

MY TOTAL: 22



[ ] consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.

[ ] seen an R-rated movie in theater. (on tv... WHEN THERE'S NOTHING OBSCENE :D)

[x ] cruised the mall.

[x] skipped school.

[ ] had surgery.

[x] had an injury.

[ ] gone to court.

[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping

[x]caught something on fire. (mid autumn festival = fire time for me.. wad do u think?)

[x] lied about your age. (hehe...)

MY TOTAL: 27



[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house.

[ ] broke the law in the police's presence.

[ ] made out with someone who had a gf/bf

[ ] got in trouble with the police.

[x] talked to a stranger

[ ] hugged a stranger.

[ ] Kissed a stranger.

[x] rode in the car with a stranger. (my parents friend whom idk)

[ x] been harassed.

[x ] been verbally harassed.

MY TOTAL: 31



[ ] met face-to-face with someone you met online.

[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight.

[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. (ahma!)

[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight.

[x] been to a fair.

[ ] been called a bad influence.

[ ] drink and drive.

[x] prank-called someone. (-.-)

[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.

[x] cheated on a test (hurhur)

total: 37


uh i'm just an average bad kid ._.

today was sabacs and so yeah!
I GOT NOTES FROM RENEWABLE ENERGY + I DIDNT FALL ASLEEP FROM SLEEPING ONLY 4 H YESTERDAY!
and to my disappointment, the 1st lesson of chinese drama was boring coz we nv act anything-.-
must act then it's called drama ma...
OH

and this reminds me of my screwed ENG DRAMA actually can be very nice de performance.
we changed the script by adding A KNIFE PART TO BRING THE CONSTANT NYMPH TO ITS HEIGHT! THEN BIANG! I DROP THE KNIFE!
BUT THEN HOR, COZ OF THE STUPID DOOR (MADE UP OF 2 BLOCKS OF BLACK BOX)

OUR WHOLE EXCITING SCENT WAS BLOCKED!

and literally half of the audience were watching shadow shows-.-


AND AND AND HOR
MY HMP SIA HOR
THE ANALYSIS HOR
DID ALL THE WRONG WAY LEH
I NV SEE TEH TEMPLATE LEH
THEN I ANYHOW DO LEH
THEN I GONNA DIE LIAO
I WONDERING SHOULD ZE ME BAN LIAO...
I PLANNING TO ASK MRS HO FOR ME TO REDO AND EXTENSION TO FRI LIAO
HENCE I SHOULD GO COMPOSE THEN SEND THE EMAIL LIAO
THEN SPEND SOME TIME CHIONGING LIAO.

HENCE BB LIAO!

人生总是充满了遗憾，

但是如果没能创造出些快乐的回忆，

那，才是人生中最大的遗憾。

There i was, trapped in a world a few minutes behind the actual time of the world I'm supposed to be in. I was lagging behind time, literally in the same world that should have only existed a few minutes ago. I was trapped there.

I don't know why and how i got there. But i had a vague memory that i squeezed through toilet holes (that actually contained a time teleporter) to the world that happened a few minutes before now.

I cant remember much. Everything was ever so confusing and complicated.

I remember walking back into my classroom (discussing some drama performance and everyone was assigned a role).

I remember walking pass a restaurant or coffee house where i saw 2 sch mates (i shall not say who) sitting together. I went in and approached them, only to receive weird and pissed-off glances. I saw another sch mate and somehow, she knew my circumstance. She was trying to help me find my way, but slowly, she faded away with the passing minutes. Then i passed that coffeehouse/restaurant again. I didn't know what i was doing but i went in to say hi again-.- This time, i sat on a seat, only to be chased off by this guy (teen whom i don't know) who said I'm occupying his seat. Then i was drove out of the shop. When i went in, those sch mates were completely ignoring me, and now, they're chatting damn happily with this guy whom i don't know at all.

Then i entered this house. I could not remember the owner. She showed me her collection of gigantic water babies. I didn't know know why again-.- and she knew my circumstance too. She cleared her toilet and asked her daughter (whom i don't know again) to help me. Somehow, I had a strong feeling that that toilet hole could lead me back to my time. Before allowing me to try getting into the hole, she gave me this gigantic water baby-.- and asked me to take it to my time.
soon, i stuffed myself into the hole. I waited. nothing happened. I waited again. NOTHING HAPPENED. i was completely wet and drenched by then. I got out and repeated whole process again, only to aggravate my drenchness.

somehow, all of a sudden, I found myself sitting at home, at my desk, back in my time. I asked some people what happened, how did i appear back? they said i went through the black hole. I had zero memories about " going though a black hole " and i didn't even remember seeing one before. I still had the water baby in my hand. But there was a tiny hole on it! I located the hole after a few seconds and squeezed the sides together. But the water baby decreased in size significantly. It was then when i realised that it has changed into a sticky balloon.

All these while, right from the moment i entered the "wrong-time" world, i was pondering about my uncompleted HMP sia. and that was the reason why i was so damn urgent to go back. If not I'd have probably stayed longer. until now it's still stacking on top of my head, attempting to crash me down.

Finally, I awoke, discovering how amazingly everything churned out to be a dream. However, as i thought about it, i wondered if it could be true, because that's how people comes back from another world, by waking up from a deep sleep realising how everything, that had seemed so real, was just a dream. Weird one. But all those toilet scenes in the dream seemed so vaguely and distantly familiar, like as if I'd seen them somewhere else, long before the occurrence of this dream. But i have no idea when, where, who or how.


* i could remember almost all those sch mates, i just dun wanna say their names.

i feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad,
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.
I feel very sad.

and i typed every single letter out here with no copying and pasting.

i cant find my hmp textbook! and i left it on the shelf! and of coz there's many more other things that happened.

if not i wont be this sad.

I hate it.

and my blog cnt make words fade completely into the background-.- .

lalala today i TRIED borrowing the hmp room but failed! the tchers are going home. Hence i was roaming abt jurong point with minghui and qingxiao, i was supposed 2 find ninglu then she was angry that i've eaten... i can eat again mah.... and then she dont want meet me liao... doesnt make sense... haih a lot of things dont make sense la heck.

hahaha. cant think of depressing stuff to say temporarily. BB :D(omg how rare will this smiley face be on my blog?!)

OH AND AND jasmine can sms le!!! yea! but then i can't le-.- HOORAY.

I dont need your pity. I dont need it at all. I might not know what i'm doing sometimes, but i dont need our pity.
I've learnt a great deal of things from these 2 years. Nothing's ever so simple and pure anymore.
The rule:

eh... i nv post coz i always thought that there's sth wrong with the archives-.- BUT THE FACT IS, AFTER CHANGING SO MANY TIMES, I DISCOVERED THAT NOTHING'S WRONG-.- OK! this skin is nice, paiseh sorry jasmine i took it!

hello paiseh thank you mother:]

這是一個沒有答案的問題
我感覺我變了OH~誰讓我變了
因為這是一個沒有答案的問題
就被你解開了就那麼解開了
你走過了在這個迷人苦痛的對白
你甚至不讓我知道你對我有多好
慢慢地這份愛悄悄地住下來
深深的在心裡沒人看得出來
安靜的但卻一直都在數你默默的愛
慢慢地這份愛已經變成依賴
漸漸地笑容裡卻讓我充滿期待
不用說我就能夠明白OH你默默的愛
這是一個沒有答案的問題
我感覺我變了OH~誰讓我變了
因為這是一個沒有答案的問題
就被你解開了就那麼解開了
你走過了在這個迷人苦痛的對白
你甚至不讓我知道你對我有多好
慢慢地這份愛悄悄地住下來
深深的在心裡沒人看得出來
安靜的但卻一直都在數你默默的愛
慢慢地這份愛已經變成依賴
漸漸地笑容裡卻讓我充滿期待
不用說我就能夠明白OH你默默的愛
未來的每一天不管發生什麼呢
不能挑給我呢
我要永遠陪著你守候著你直到最後WOO~~~~~~~
慢慢地這份愛悄悄地住下來
深深的在心裡沒人看得出來
安靜的但卻一直都在數你默默的愛
慢慢地這份愛已經變成依賴
漸漸地笑容裡卻讓我充滿期待
不用說我就能夠明白OH你默默的愛

-默默－

Sometimes, the one who reaches a hand out to you and grabs you when your last finger starts sliding off the cliff, is the one whom you begin the journey with, right from the start. Storms brewed and resolved in this journey. But we all know, that this is not the end.

whatever you've got,
is what you have to survive through with.
No one is truly dependable,
sometimes,
not even yourself.
You've got to learn and treasure and make use of only what you own.
But in this world,
how many people have the ability to do that?
They always say,
no man is an island,
but proverbs are proverbs,
of course,
it is definitely true literally,
an island is much bigger than one man-.-

reality

are you strong enough,
to throw off those burdens you are carrying?
are you "courageous" enough ,
to throw them off?
or would you rather untie the burdens
and empty them?

when some are thrown
and some are emptied,
Have you noticed the new ones
dropping on your shoulder
accompanying you till they're gone.

U told yourself
u hate them
you want them off.
out of your sight.
but when you dump them down,
you pay for the consequence
If you empty them
you have to set to work.


Along this path you walk,
you see obstacles and obstacles
till now u live
u crossed them one by one.
just like in a video game
they come in everyone's way
consistently.

view it as a game,
it's hard to find the grand aim.
think about it too deep,
stress will pull you down, sooner or later.


you tried telling yourself everything's fine,
but it's so tough to keep your balance
you fall.
and everyone does.
but they learn to stand back up
and pick themselves up.
countless falls.
when you don't learn,
you'll just simply be a half dead zombie.
finding your way
with the program entered into your computer brain
unamazed by the horrible surrounding.

and one day
when you finally wake up
when it's too late.
how sad would it be,
when you discovered you've lost your most precious time.
most precious youth
lost the chance
to weave out countless beautiful memories you could have
in your past.


Now you wonder,
what have you been doing,
time never stays still
neither do you.
your heart's pumping,
your blood's circulating,
your eyes are moving
and you still have the time ahead.
you are left with each second ahead
to plan
to start
to continue
to finish.

everyone wonders
everyone thinks
everyone's wasted time.
but life's ahead.
not everything may be in your hands.
but you have the right
and ability
to make your change
be the change if you want it.
you have goals, you have the time ahead.

no matter how long or how short it may be,
each passing day belongs to you,
influenced by your hands and your mind.


have you ever cried?
yes you do,
who hasn't?
have you ever tried?
of course.
and did you stand up from your failures?
some,
and the rest were left abandoned and unsolved.

Were you ever depressed?
who wasn't?
you would stand up and learn to walk out of it won't you?


yesterday owes you the debt
however, it simply walks away with it
without returning it back
and never returning you back.
only leaving you with the thoughts about your losses.
tomorrow will never repeat itself as the same tomorrow
it is what you can plan for.
today is the most familiar day and it is still what you can alter.
And now is the moment you can make to enjoy and decide.
And every single moment you know of,
whether good or bad,
regardless of the time,
is a treasure.



Have you found your treasure of all these treasures?

why you go cut! issit got bubblegum/tape then cannot get out ._. or you just boliao walkwalkwalk see a salon then randomrandom walk in and ask the hairdresser to cut your hair lol..

no wonder you dont let me go find you -.- tsk thought something happened to you .___. end up only cut hair -.- chey. cheat my feelings...

anyway, i am just a random invader trying to revive this blog -.- WHEN I AM SUPPOSED TO BE REVISING FOR MATHS BLOCKS! .______.

hence i should go now. and come back invade next time :D YAY.