I dont need your pity. I dont need it at all. I might not know what i'm doing sometimes, but i dont need our pity.
I've learnt a great deal of things from these 2 years. Nothing's ever so simple and pure anymore.
The rule:
Be independent and never rely on anyone, and be nice to everyone. Never trust anyone, no one'll be always there for you (besides your parents, perhaps.)
I despise it when people come and go along with me when i'm the only choice left. ie if there're others, of course i wouldn't even exist in their eyes. I dislike it. I not like others. I'm not a suck-up i don't long for this bit of accompaniment. I'd rather be alone. I know how different i think from others. But that's my thinking. I don't wish for that bit at all. But if i'm really a true friend to you, what i've written above will never make your heart skip a beat. What do you think now?
WOW. she said she read blogs. probably in her eyes, i have ap. I can tell you honestly, like what bernice had said, I do think differently from others. But i'm not selfish. Ask my friends. If you're not me, obviously , and when you dont even know me, why do you bother telling me you don't understand what i'm thinking, are you saying that you understand what anyone is thinking? Maybe you could phrase it this way, i'm the only person you know whom you can never get hold of, not a single tiny tiny part of my thoughts. But that's impossible. I'm human, i have a human brain just like you, hence this does not make sense too. Not everyone is what they're like on the surface. I cant be bothered with putting up another face, and you cant understand me. Maybe, you dont even understand what i'm writing at all. I thought philosopy is learnt to analyse people's thoughts? or issit used specially for analysing only some people with a "nice attitude"s thought.
Why am i writing all these in my blog? simply coz i simply cant talk to you one-to-one. Even if someone's gonna counsel me, someone else. You aren't suppose to read. but of coz anyone can simply read. Pretend that you've read nothing. coz as i said, u werent supposed to read, but at least you may know me better.
btw, if you say u dont understand me, the most i can say is i dont understand you at all too. And so far as i know, i dont have to understand you, because i could hardly think of any reasons. Best if you nv knew that i owned a blog. smart if you know who you are. but look at the 2nd last paragraph and remember that again.