一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
失去你　爱开始分明
失去你　还有什么事好关心
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒　
捆着手我现在是奴隶
我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情

啊　雾掩盖是遮蔽　夜色不干净
还给你整夜的回忆　占满天飞行
送你的白色玫瑰　在窗台的花前凋零
午夜在树枝上诡异的很安静倾听　
我黑色的大衣　像我的你
衣栉比鳞的鬼　走过的走过的森林
啊　四周弥漫雾气
啊　我在空旷的墓地
老去后还爱你

纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念很小心
你埋葬的地方就有你

为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印

那些断翅的蜻蜓　
散落在这森林
而我的眼睛　
没有丝毫同情
失去你　泪水混浊无情
失去你　我连笑容都有阴影
我站在满心期待的屋顶
嘲笑我的伤心
像一口没有水的枯井
我用尽我的自信
要我后悔莫急等待爱情

I love this song,
sad thing that I cant listen to this song,
if not my cheeks would be wet within a minute-.-

lalala.. I wonder where i can buy hayami mokomichi's posters lalala! i'm crazy :D
(i conclude he's more shuai than wuchun ha._. but wuzun probably prettier..? haha:D)

It does happen, or rather, it did happen.
The hardest and saddest thing was to cope with it
and to accept it.
It's even harder to tell what was left unsaid.
It's not easy to put your words into actions.
The worst thing is to discover it slowly
and finally realising that those days,
they're all gone.
And then the second last step,
feeling the pain,
and the final and bravest step
is to get up and give up and to heal the pain.

sometimes, they say,
giving up is a virtue too.

damn sad.
maybe one day i'll say this too.
"please erase me from this world."

I really feel that my life is too plain-.-
I wasted a lot of tissues recently.
My eyes are tired and sore._.
thanks to the book and the show-.-
raaar
why are they so touching and sad?
see la, water is wasted, salt is wasted, trees are wasted
haih
see.
This is the consequence.
But i continued watching and reading and continued wasting tissues even after i've finished._.
I'm hyper emotional.

I want my life to be extremely happy then extremely exciting then extremely sad (actually not really-.-) and then extremely weird, then extremely happy
and sudden changes of emotions and stuff ! so cool!
but that's only in dramas and xiao shuos-.-

But there's a way out! i shan't say.
I'm deciding if I really should take that path.
I'm afraid of competitors (useless-.-)
and afaid of failures.
I have to reconsider and consider.

ok nvm!

But my life now very plain leh how?-.- LOL.
As in those dramas only make u sad coz of it but it doesn't really affect your overall life as in...
uhhh
aiya
u get wad i mean la
if not nvm._.

I cant imagine my life being very dramatic, but that'll be damn fun :D (hopefully)

i shall reply tags haha;

ok well i dk how to cresate the box hence nvm :D

ninglu: sorry la cnt go genting with u!-.- sad rite... but u bought lots of
things rite(got things 4 me rite :D?)! must call me after u see this
:D

weiyu: my trip to bird paark normally damn boring one
mah suddenly not boring must post in colous ha!

x: heck who u r u dont anyhow tag my blog to promote
ur dunno wat stuff, i facing problem also totally unrelated to
u-.-

hil: haha... detailed haha gd.

hannah : muahahahahahaha too :D

bernice: yeah not bad taste! but u also nv say gd
taste-.-

weiyu: thx to ming for explaining teh wuchun part
haha :D and my crziness shall remain lol (he positive one)

jasmine: i hotter-blooded than u mah who ask u to be
coldblooded ha!

minghui: i dun remember if i had eaten when i was
posting abt AB that time :D i think so, if not i would be postin abt food:D
and
hor, i just wonder what if i can act in a film/drama series, so
cool!
lol.

hello! woosh! i actually finished watching the show so cool! i shall watch it again!

REMEMBER EVERYONE, TMR FRI, SWITCH ON UR TV TO CHANNEL U AT 11.30 SHARP FOR A ROBOTIC VIEW:D

it seems, that there's only one thing i'm unafraid to showcase in front of others, under the pressurizing atmosphere of utmost silence.

i'm history.
Long ago, i had become history.
Yet, i refused to believe.
I was aware long ago.
But i refused to believe.
I suppose it's now time for me to wakeup
quit putting faith in every little thing that happened
stop deceiving myself
know the impossibility
and face reality.

hello!

MUST WATCH ABSOLUTE BF! I'M CRAZY ABT PROMOTING IT LOL.
:D
very nice!
i wasted 10 ++++ tissues!
i think nobody will
unless u watch eveything in a shot like me haha...
very kuazhang LOL
must go watch ah!

haha!
(i conclude i'm chao time-wasting + warm-blooded)

i really like you a lot, but i'll never know how to say.

LOL.
i'm so dead (alive).
The only thing I'm lack of currently is a cousel from our school counsellor.

Everything else is all done,
except for a trip to the counsellor.
So interesting,
isn't it?

I'd better plan out eveything beforehand in case this day really come.s

*pushing open the door of teh counsellor's room*
*goes in*
*sit down*
me: omg dearest (counsellor's name), you are the so pretty! I love you!
Nice to meet you! I'm Jincheng!

If she stares at me crazily,
I shall go on like this, if not i'll resort to (b)

(a)
:D you really are pretty!
Hi what am I here for?
oh my dear counsellor, I know i have attitude problem,
but you see, everything's solved,
especially my attitude problem which existed in my previous life,
the only problem I have now,
I mean enjoyable time,
is staying in this pretty little room,
when EOYS are coming (best to say this after eoys)
Hello, uh am i counselling myself?
I'm doing all the talking haha.

uh mrs/ ms/ mdm/ , what may i help you with?
You seem to look confused?
why why,
I thought these days the weather is pretty gd?
and life's going on fairly easy with the EOYS.
~
*and i'll rave on

And hopefully she dials the IMH no. And i'll be loyal patient of IMH to be released in less than 2 days :D

(b)
if she craps with me,
then i'll probably tell her all the stuffs like
I have no intention of harming anyone,
I love everyone around me,
including you,
(and if she starts talking about anything sad,i'll askher her happy times)
was dinner nice yesterday?
The kfc which i ate (actually not yet,_.) is hyper-delicious,
And i think what they say are all true,
true to the extreme that I certainly believe, and take it to the core of my heart
I knows for sure that they care for me by telling me all their mistakes,
That's why i'm planning, but not yet,
to repay them by helping them improve
by telling how beautiful they are,
~~~~~~~~

And hopefully she calls imh, and hopefully not the principle,

and if worse comes the worse i'm facing the principle.

I'll sit quietly and look at my skirt throughout.
and at the end of her speech (if there is)(and my words will be true , mostly)

i'll move my eyes up to stare at her with tearing spiraling in my eyes telling her how much i ought to thank her and how sorry i feel for actually sparing her time to give this poor student so much time with her one out of the thousands student, when she's got much more important stuff to do._.


Basically, if i'm called to visit the counsellor,
My aim will be to get to pay a visit to IMH and having the doctors wondering exactly what i went there for.

I suppose or rather,
I know,
I'm crazy.

But won't you,
when you know a lot of things are spinning behind your back,
yet you hold entirely no knowledge of exactly what happened?

Issit me going crazy or you having stm 0.0 lol.

After turning one big round i decided that i shall still sort of idolise him:D haha
he very pretty (and gay they say)
Ok fine i know everyone'll say say i bad taste-.-
heck
Aiya sometimes his hairstyle fridge too long really a little gay and weird la.
But i still like him!
he's wuchun!
LOL.

And i like Angela chang too! she very preetty and cute! (a little thin i guess)
But then her features very unique!
lol
I'm mad.
haha.

sometimes everyone needs some release,

I feel so exhausted.
I wonder what if I'm not the way I am now,
I wish to fall into a deep sleep
I wish that I'm right in thw middle of a deep sleep,
no, towards the end.
And how i wish,
when i awake,
I'll come to realisation that this world is just my dreamland,
a dreamland that only will exist in dreams, never in that reality.
A dreamland so real that all the dreams are etched into my mind,
A dreamland with dreams that had and would never exist
That real, yet all fake.

I wish
that I'd wake up, falling upon a fairytale world
A fairytale world where all evil perish and all good live happily ever after.

Yet, how awful it feels,
to understand so well that
I'll never ever wake up from this dream.
'cause it's nothing related to a dream, not at all.
So well I know,
That it's simply the exact opposite.

Seriously, i should just trash all those thoughts into outer space, into the black hole.
i knew it'll never become.
i' ve been putting too much faith in hope sometimes.
I knew it right from the start,
yet I ignored everything.
How foolish of me
What a joke I'll be
But the road behind has disappeared,
All that's left to be chosen,
is to take a turn
Or continue the original.

Night at the museum 2 very nice!
or at least quite nice:D
The Abraham Lincoln statue very cute!
The small figures very cute!
Amelia very shuai!
OMG! so nice haha,
but i wanna watch night at the museum 1 tooo!
haha

and then hor we were roaming abt jurong point.

Then we bought 2 packs of sushi, namely the ones with barbequed eels and raw salmon!
very nice! the wasabi very hot!

then hannah was like whole nose go red! see how hot the wasabi is like!
but she was enjoying haha!
lol.
in the end the wasabi only left a little bit haha :]
next time shall buy those cute small sushis again! quite filling :D

(We were actually sitting on the floor near an exit and eating yummily! I dunno if we were being stared at most of the time coz my eyes were on the yummy sushis! Hopefully no tcher saw us -.- anyway we were not blocking the way at all!)

Ha! then me and hannah went home and the rest stayed lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! WEIYU!

WEIYU OMG I'M SO FREEKLY SORRY!
I GOT THE SMS SAVED AS DRAFT FOR VERY LONG. IN THE END I SENT YOU ONE DAY LATE._.
PLEASE DO NOT COMMENT ON MY SHIBAINESS....
SO SAD.
BUT AT LEAST LUCKILY I'M ONLY ONE DAY LATE.
IF NOT I'LL ZISHA. (I thought of that after i sent the sms hurhur!)
uh as u see, ppl write ur happy birthday post at 0.00am on 5june
i shall write happy birthday one day late...
(I SERIOUSLY MEANT IT BY ACCIDENT)
uh we shall say that that is special in an unique way also hurhur...

I went to bird Park today!
I thought that it would be extremely boring!
But hooray i'm only half wrong (see i'm a negative person who wont's say that i'm half-right-.-)!
Basically,
the great me were spending my whole time in bird park (ie 3 hours ++)
in Lory Loft with a pot of feelings, one coming up at each time.

When i entered Lory Loft.
I saw the bird food and I was like jumping for joy coz i just got a cup of birds' food solution.
And that's when my brother.
My clever brother.
Said," Jie jie wo yao!"
and hooray we exchanged containers.
and he poured in some of mine into the container i held in my hand.
Then i a bit bu shuang and my mood dropped my 20%-.-
(as you know I haven't got over my excitement when this person snatch away the root of my excitement-.-)
He should have waited for a few seconds after a random lory feed on my new bird food solution for a few sec before he snatches it away lol)

But he's damn happy (as in not damn but happier)
so nvm la.
And the i started thinking or Jasmine's sms-.-
"Miracle! Theres actually something that can be noisier than you?! 0: call the news!"

and all i told her just now was that the macaws very noisy , noisier than me-,0

But sometimes i'm also very silent one mah....
I wonder what happens if she really call the news._.

and then my okay mood decreased by another 20%

Then the bird didn't want to jump onto my arm to eat.
Then my mood decreased by another 20%.
Then i added water to the solution to dilute it.
Then no bird wanted to eat.
Then my mood dropped by 20%

Then the sun was freakly hot.
And my mood dropped by 10 %
Then i asked my mum when we can go out.
She called me selfish coz
apparently my brother was taozui-ing._.
Then my mood dropped by 10 %

(all the percentage are that of the original mood right at the start)

Hence, I've got no mood left ._.
and I simply stoned ._. and watched the birds. See My maths quite ok...

And then I saw a green lory with orange stomach (the colour i hate)
That lory VERY GUAI~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!! (which caused my mood to heighten to 100%!!!)
Then i took the food solution to feed it.
Omg! it's so damn cute!
Whenever i ask it to jump onto my arm,
it will do so immediately without hesitation! Damn guai!
But like other lories, it's scared of strokings lol.
Soon there wasn't any left.
I told the lory that i'll go and take some more from my mom and I told it to wait and stay there.
And then i rushed off to get some more food solution.
To my surprise, that guai lory was standing in the same position waiting for its food!
OMG SO GUAI! That isn't it yet.
After eating for some time,
It flew off from my arm and rested against a nearby railing.
It didn't simply flew off into the trees, unlike the other lories i fed.
It waited for me to approach it in its place an started chirping.
And then I started laming around.
I asked if it is full.
Then it replied with a chirp.
And I asked are you sure?
and it replied with two chirps.
Then i said byebye then.
And then it flew away. So guai rite??
OMG!

such a cute darling.
The only problem being that I could no longer recognise that lory LOL...
Ok I know it's weird that I talked to birds.
But i feel like talking to the guai Lory mah.
So cute!

And I was bored out again]: mood dropped again-.-
And i did sth bad : stole food from the tray but climbing over the chains...
And we finally left the Lory loft at 6++ -.-
And we went to admire some chio birds and i forgot the name of that place anyway.
And I saw this damn shy and chio and cute bird species!
It's called Cockasthsth...
Damn cute!
why?
Coz of it's natural blusher!
It's got these strands of feather sticking out of its head and there are 2 round pink patches on each cheek!
So chio!
and its colour is quite nice!

And there are some chio birds with Sapphire wings!

Omg... And i'm blogging at 12.29 am LOL.

LALAla....
Suddenly I feel QUITE (not very yet) high... hahaha...
EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT EVEN SUIRE IF THERE IS SCIENCE FAIR TMR-.-
after asking so damn many ppl -.-

ok i shall quite weiyu's birthday :D
First of all I was the first to reach there. (cinema)
I was leaning against the railinh staring down at the stream of people walking lazily below.
I was breathing and my eyes were open!
ok i shan't go into this luo suo details haha!

Ok then we watched Monsters vs aliens 3D!!!!
thx to weiyu!
its damnnnn fun!
And interesting!
and beyond description! (actually not really?)
COZ THE SCREEN'S TOO SMALL!!
unlike hongkong disneyland's gigantic screen 3D + water + smell effect!!!
omg cool rite!
But the movie plot quite nice!
Touching + trusting + pure friendship (between monsters )
ANd this selfish and spouse who's a betrayer-.-
*sigh*

And later We managed to give Weiyu a big surprise!
But actually i think she guessed what it was already////... hurhur...
thought she showed entirely 0% of her knowledge of the upcoming event! lol
dont you worry,
I gave no hints except for the fact that it's inedible (exact opposite, those who know me knows wad i mean!)

LOL....

And then when she saw teh cake she was so happy!
Weiyu very cute!
Ah then we sang the birthday song!
And halfway through i decided to change it to the zoooooooooooo song!
superb ! and Minghui was a tiny little bit stunned i guess LOL....
then weiyu cut the cake.
And i sort of force (suggest i mean :D) her to take pictures of the plastic knife on her hand (with her of coz la)
and we got quite a few pics with her dear knife and her!

i shall post when i feel like it hahaahaha... (ok this laughter is... well weird)
And then we went home.

And minghui was busily trying to find jialing's block somewhere through chuachukang and yew tew if i nv remember wrongly (likely i did ._.)

and she was like that one that one! eh wait no no... this one!
In the end i also dunno which one!
haha.
Hence i guess jialing should feel honored LOL?

ok lalala

Yea! i shall move on back on time to today's post!